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My last short fiction instructor told us not to write about cancer. "It's been done," she said. Well, the hell with that. I learned in the last three weeks that I have stage III breast cancer. Writing, painting, and assorted other arts are how I process stuff, in addition, of course, to long conversations with friends. These conversations have begun in earnest these recent days, but I realized my Facebook page in particular was in danger of becoming a medical-update site. I do not want that. My life is still going to be about more than cancer, as much as that may not seem possible right now. Also, I don't want to alienate friends who are not ready to walk this particular valley with me at this time. For example, one elderly friend who called to cheer me up this week can't even handle the "c-word," and there is no way she will be up for any truly frank discussion of what's about to happen here. So she is advised to keep in touch with me via Facebook. People who are comfortable with the c-word, honest discussion and occasional cursing are welcome to join me here.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Sorry for not writing!

Hello friends!  I have to apologize for the gap in blog updates there.  People are beginning to ask if something is wrong.  I didn't mean to scare anyone.
     I am doing very well, actually.  But the final chemo really laid me out for a while.  The docs and nurses had warned me it would get worse at the end, because some of the effects are cumulative, and they were right.  After my very first chemo treatment, I was out with my friends eating BBQ the next night!  But after the final treatment, I basically laid on the couch for ten days or so, whenever I could.  I felt much sicker, and for much longer, than I had for earlier treatments.  I did not do any writing or much reading, or much of anything beyond basic family maintenance, for a couple of weeks.  I should have had someone take my picture and post it here while I was at my sickest, because that probably was my low-water point right there, but I didn't have the presence of mind.
     The good news is, we are now three weeks and a couple days beyond the last treatment, and I am feeling better every day.  I can taste food again! I am feeling queasy much less often.  I am back to the gym now.  Soon, my hair will start growing back and my eyes will stop watering and so on.
     I am scheduled for surgery on Aug. 17 and am looking forward to having that over with.  I will be having a regular mastectomy with reconstruction, on one side only.  I have a great surgeon and plastic surgeon.  I'll be doing radiation after that, until approximately Halloween, and then hope to be done with this chapter of life.
     Thank you for your cards and casseroles and hugs and books and CDs!

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